Self Portrait Tuesday: Life Documentary Series #4


October 25th, 2005

MORNING

It is dark when I wake up.
Rain pouring down, smudging the window with tiny rivers.
It has been three weeks of rain.

I shower. The rooms in my small apartment
are dim and blue and quiet,
except for my baby’s excited babble.

I dry my damp skin
and wait for the collection of memories
and present moments about my life to gather in my mind,
making the daily mosaic whole of who I am. I dress.

The solid metal of my belt buckle. Jeans.
These are the things I put on every day,
that in some small way, make me who I am.

My son crawls up my legs. He needs dressing too.
He asks for every fragment of my soul.
All of my love, right now, this minute.

My hair is wet. Yesterday the hair dresser asked,
“What products do you use?” I shrugged,
“Nothing. Some days I’m lucky if I get it brushed.”
Her laughter tinkled through the salon, polite, young.

The heady earthy scent of coffee comes to me from the kitchen.
Already on the floor, a myriad of blocks.
I breathe in. I breathe out. I am here. Now.


20 Responses to “Self Portrait Tuesday: Life Documentary Series #4”

  1. blackbird on October 25, 2005 6:03 pm

    and now I feel like I was there too…
    I can smell the coffee.

  2. Nichola on October 25, 2005 7:03 pm

    Very nice! Everything looks calm, i’m sure it’s not though! ;)

  3. Steph. on October 25, 2005 7:28 pm

    I agree with Nichola. My self portrait would be of me scrambling around telling my six year old over and over, “If you don’t get ready now, we’ll be late!”
    Nice shots…

  4. christina on October 25, 2005 8:01 pm

    Calm??? Are you kidding?

  5. carla on October 25, 2005 8:51 pm

    I believe very much in the importance of morning rituals, calm or rushed. For me, they’re my morning ablutions…I too collect my thoughts, my memories, try to grasp something fine that passed through my mind in the night…all so I can center myself for the day. I need to get out of bed two hours before I need to go to work just so I can feel that I’ve had some time that’s mine before i turn myself over to students and colleagues. I thoroughly enjoyed looking at these pictures and following you through the first bits of your morning. I am intrigued by how you get some of your pictures…they are as if you don’t even know you’re being photographed…is your camera set on a timer, or does your husband take them?

  6. Jill on October 25, 2005 9:15 pm

    Beautiful photos. I like the narrative, too. You are such a good writer!

  7. christina on October 25, 2005 10:24 pm

    Carla–I took the photos with the self-timer, no flash. I kind of liked the blurry over exposed effect.

  8. kath on October 25, 2005 11:19 pm

    well done - evokes such feeling

  9. Dominique on October 25, 2005 11:54 pm

    This is excellent. I especially love the description of your son - when he comes to you. So powerful. I miss those days.

  10. steph on October 26, 2005 12:57 am

    I really enjoyed this week’s set. It was moving and evocative, especially the detail about the salon visit.

  11. Marilyn on October 26, 2005 2:18 am

    Fabulous!

  12. irene on October 26, 2005 3:34 am

    love it!

  13. carla on October 26, 2005 5:49 am

    Thanks for answering my question…I like the effect you get as well. It’s cool that you end up in front of the mirror in sharper focus, but hidden behind your camera! Have a great day…I’m off to the shower now:>

  14. Richard on October 26, 2005 6:52 am

    Beautiful blogging … original, intimate, goof stuff.

  15. Richard on October 26, 2005 6:53 am

    “good” stuff …. it may be goofy too but that wasn’t what I meant to say.

    Peace …

  16. Richard on October 26, 2005 10:20 am

    Thank you for your thoughtful comment on my page … and yes, His Holiness is coming - he is in fact the major reason we decided on the move …
    Best,
    Richard

  17. yolie on October 26, 2005 10:40 am

    I love this. Illustrated poetry.

  18. andrea j on October 26, 2005 11:13 am

    really loving the movement in these photos.

  19. lizardek on October 26, 2005 2:18 pm

    it’s like a little poetic photo-mentary. I wish I was that relaxed in the mornings!

  20. la vie en rose on October 26, 2005 2:46 pm

    wonderful…so well said and the pics that you choose go so well with the them…thanks for sharing your creative soul with us…

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