9 months of wonder

Dear 9 month old Bean,
You have now spent as long outside in this big world as you did inside my stomach. It’s a pretty cool place here isn’t it? You have learned so much about your world since you arrived. Every morning now, you wake up, pat our faces and crawl over us to the […]

A part of me

I remember my early childhood in vibrant action stills. The place, the smell, the color of the location are edge sharp in my mind. These early memories are not like later ones which are cohesive and linked chronologically somehow. Instead they are like pictures, snapshots in my head, often completely unrelated, just a few moments […]

Self Portrait Tuesday: A part of me

I am in my mama’s arms at around 9 months old. Look at all that plaid! Ahh, to be born in the 70s…

postcards recieved

I recieved the last of the postcards from the sawp Nichola organized. I was amazed at all the delicate stitchery—all but two had some form of sewing. It’s easy to impress me with sewing.
I have hilarious memories of learning to use a sewing machine in seventh grade. Our project was to make a nightgown. […]

Sunday mosaic # 3

The last yellow leaves came down in the wind today and the light has taken on a winter hue. I walk about barefoot before breakfast, gathering up CDs and ripped magazine pages that have been scattered throughout the living room like confetti.
Later we drive again to look at the house we’re in a tizzy […]

Car pictures

Took a drive in the late afternoon to see some houses edging the small college town we’re into. Still indecisive about buying or building, we met our agent to look at two farmhouses, both too near the road. Strange to walk through other people’s rooms, fingering their door knobs, opening their closets. Hanging behind […]

Mohawk grins

Bean is on the mend, it seems. He spent the afternoon flinging CDs off the entertainment center shelves, one at a time, giggling with delight as they crashed in a puddle of plastic cases around him. One little sharp tooth has (finally!) cut through, and the spots are fading…and last night he actually slept for […]

Small things, big things

Snow was predicted for today, but instead sun. Outside the street is bright and striped with angled shadows. Most of the leaves have fallen now, and the tree branches are bare–reminding me of capillaries or rivers viewed from above. Each tree, a network of twigs, sap slowing for winter.
After I got out of the shower […]

This way and that

Anxiety has spread out across the surface of my life tonight, like the glaze a potter applies to a bowl. Liquid under high temperatures, then ridged when left to cool. So many things feel up in the air, suddenly. In transition, in motion. I’m finding myself dreaming, gasping, muttering. Longing for more sleep, for long, […]

Serious

Teeth coming in and a night of very restless sleep. Today pensive. I am blown away, watching my son, at the complexity of his emotional life–at only eight months. He has started anticipating our actions in response to what he sees us looking at. He reads our faces like an emotional roadmap. But today I […]