Striking a balance

Hunger lurches through me and my fingers peck haplessly at the keys; my heart lurks at the edges of the room, where the lamplight doesn’t fall, licking the wound of worry like a dog.
It’s been decided—at least in part, that I’ll be going back to work next year, and it makes sense. But I’ve […]

I maybe shouldn’t have run to get the camera first…

…But I couldn’t help it. It was just too funny: the sound of catfood falling, and then his immediate wail of utter woe. Catfood. Everywhere. He could not be consoled until I got the dustpan and brush and showed him how to sweep it up. Such a sweetie, he is.

Total sappiness

This guy rocks my world.
It’s been a rough couple of months, especially for him, since he’s carrying the brunt of this crazy renovation project—on top of his day job (day trader). Neither of us get down time, and sometimes everything hits us in the face like mud sprayed up from the tires of a […]

In constant motion

Five minutes to write is all I seem to be able to scrounge up amidst the hubbub of spring—renovations are now in full throttle, every day, every hour one of us is there. Marathon training is also ratcheting up—and it’s awesome to feel the effects of training: yesterday I went for a nine mile run, […]

Delightful

The theme at Mama Says Om this week is delight. Such perfect timing for today, when the weather is pure sun, the air mild and warm, and our feet bare. Bean helped me add some color to this little list of springtime goodness. He sat on the table, bare legged and chubby thighed, and pressed […]

The taste of dirt.

Spring is all about mud in these parts. The roads are thick with it, and around the edges of the lawn are patches of soaked ground, perfect for poking sticks into or finding pebbles, and Bean has fallen in love with DIRT.

The heartbeat of spring

My life feels like an EKG lately. Moments of intense sweetness followed with moments of such sheer exhaustion. Moments of joy followed by quickly settling depression.
If winter was the season for introspection, for a quiet reservation, brooding, reflection, spring is the season for change. For all things chaotic; growth, willy nilly. For upheaval.
Migrating […]

Where my heart finds home

When my heart begins to flutter like the fins of a hundred small fish with worry about the things I cannot control, I seek out wild places where words no longer matter. Where language is the drip of snowmelt, the rat-a-tat-tat of the early woodpecker, or the calling of the chickadee.
Today I explored a […]

Time for sleep

Even now, after a year, sleep isn’t the same. Maybe it will never be like it was pre-baby: eight hours without a single moment of semi-consciousness. Now night is a blur of dreams, wide awake moments flushed with hormonal heat, moments yanked from sleep yet again, moments still nursing.
As a result some days my […]

Weekend mosaic: sugar on snow & framing walls

We wake up baffled about the time. As usual, the three of us are a tangle of limbs, warm skin against skin. Bean has taken to nuzzling into the nook between my chin and shoulder when he wakes up, and today he snuggles in and starts humming a little ditty that is tuneless and […]