A positive counterbalance
Posted on | November 25, 2007 |
It’s the end of a week off and I feel at once relaxed and utterly frantic. I keep trying to remind myself not to let amorphous anxiety paint the backdrop for the entire day, and to instead pinpoint the underlying fear that causes angst to spread like a dark stain over calmer moments. This week my fear is that I won’t have enough time. My writing deadline looms at the end of the week, and although I love the work I’ve been producing I haven’t had the undivided time to sink back into it in a week or two, and this week is particularly busy.
I have decided to focus on the positives this week as a counterbalance to the stress. I am excited because DH and I are starting a new class together: a beginner series in ashtanga yoga. I can’t wait for my new yoga pants to come in the mail, and am looking forward to bring more attention and focus towards being consciously in my body next to DH being consciously in his. We’ve missed each other like crazy for the past couple of weeks. Bean has been sick, and this always results in him cozying up in our bed, needier than usual and full of toddler snores. We had an afternoon napping date yesterday, and though not a lot of sleep happened, we’ve been grinning at each other ever since.
Small good things that make me smile: my orchids blooming again on my windowsill; chai tea with sugar cubes and milk; discovering new settings on my camera today; carrying around a list notebook in my back pocket (instead of obsessing about the things I’ll otherwise forget); the first green and blue eggs from my Ameracuna chickens; and my new subscription to Cookie magazine. What are some things that make you smile?
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November 25th, 2007 @ 10:40 pm
The thought of doing ashtanga next to a lover- that makes me smile. Maybe one day I shall be so lucky too.
Yoga always makes me kind of- ultra aware and present in my body- how nice to share that with your lover.. Sweet.
November 25th, 2007 @ 11:04 pm
A few things that make me smile:
A quiet house and a steaming cup of coffee
Watching my dog run in his sleep
Snowflakes
The “blanket of quietness” after a snow fall
Freshly baked bread (and the smell while it’s baking!)
Clean sheets on the bed
November 25th, 2007 @ 11:08 pm
Sipping an egg nog latte, watching my grandson…
Making Christmas ornaments as early gifts, ornaments I saw on Ali Edwards site…a place I love to visit even though it always costs me money…
A houseful of lit candles and soft music, cookies in the oven, reading your words…
Laying under a comforter, windows open with a nice chill, giving thanks for all I’ve learned on this journey…
November 26th, 2007 @ 12:32 am
Reading your blog always makes me happy….
November 26th, 2007 @ 9:28 am
A fire in the fireplace
A candle on the dining room table at dinner
Enough sleep
Reading a good book for hours and hours
November 26th, 2007 @ 10:18 am
My son finally getting a better night’s sleep despite the pneumonia he is suffering with.
Reading blogs.
The thought of making yummy treats to enjoy and give out during the holiday season.
Having a deep down conversation with my husband about serious things in our life right now … and coming out the other side feeling closer and confident.
November 26th, 2007 @ 11:31 am
your blog.
November 26th, 2007 @ 12:22 pm
Chocolate graham crackers from Starbucks, a walk Friday afternoon at our farm bundled up in coats and made warmer by love of family, hearing “I love Yous” when dropping my boys at school this morning, and today we’re celebrating our 13th wedding anniversary!
November 26th, 2007 @ 4:32 pm
leftover pumpkin cheesecake
YOU
Well, hell just about everything, really