Comments on: Here again

By: michele

michele — Fri, 29 Feb 2008 18:59:35 +0000

your words are so raw and so beautiful. your writing is poetry, even the mundane. life is routine and it sometimes really sucks if you have a wandering spirit. i do and i know. but believe me that girl with the book deal and shiny hair, she too has her basket full of stuff, we all do.
i have 2 boys under 4, imagine that….no don’t! each day i love and teach and tenderize and feel like i am going to explode sometimes.
not a lot of “me” time…no ME time. but i have come to understand that this is what it is all about, life…no one said it was easy!
no one tells you before you make a baby how difficult it is, how routine, how unforgiving, repetitive but ever so loving and beautiful and magical.
we woman almost hold the truth somewhere in our heart unable to tell the next woman the woes of raising kids…we tell only the joy.
BUT, if woman really knew the truth the population would decrease..maybe we should spread the word. only have babies if you are willing and able to give up YOU! but, i will attest that there is nothing like that sweet smell, smile, i love you’s, that look, the lOVE!

hang in there! and so glad things are better for you!

By: Wayfarer Scientista

Wayfarer Scientista — Tue, 26 Feb 2008 00:01:36 +0000

Ah, it’s February again, one of the hardest times of the year. How can a month that is so short feel so long? The long dark nights and the frozen resistant ground. I too am at that place where I want to be at the next stage of my life and it seems the faster I want to get there the slower I actually do.

By: Emily

Emily — Mon, 25 Feb 2008 15:23:54 +0000

I think as women we are told too often that we can & should have it all. But that’s impossible. We can’t. You can’t have your job you wish you had, in the thick of the Manhattan literary world, among tall buildings and subways and martinis without Bean missing his mom in another state. & your husband’s passion - it’s you & Bean. Men work so hard for their families - sometimes it’s hard to see that - to see that everything they do is for us.

Keep writing Christina, & reading it over. Keep working at your work & at your marriage. Make yourself a chain to countdown to summer. Be patient. All you can do is all you can do - is that profound or what??? Be grateful for the abundant life you have. You really do come pretty darn close to having it all. & thanks for this window into your world.

By: Sam

Sam — Mon, 25 Feb 2008 04:49:16 +0000

I once again open my land and home and heart to you snow entreched goddesses…I know it has to be so maddening, all that heavy weight, all the darkness. Of course, as I told our darling BP - you deserve so much more than our grey landscape, but it IS warm - you deserve turquoise skies and white beaches, and deliciously lethal alcoholic drinks, with umbrellas and crushed ice…

Absolutely I agree with others have said - that your former classmate may seem to have what you want (in that moment) but you, my dear, have a far richer life. Textured, layered, deep -

Your love is deep, and wide. Marriage is hard. You are so brave to share it with us. I think we often underestimate (I know I do) the pressures our men carry, their own unique set of burdens. I know the best thing I can ever do is say, “Forgive me.”

By: Sam

Sam — Mon, 25 Feb 2008 04:49:04 +0000

Absolutely I agree with others have said - that your former classmate may seem to have what you want (in that moment) but you, my dear, have a far richer life. Textured, layered, deep -

By: zee

zee — Sun, 24 Feb 2008 17:01:16 +0000

i love reading your posts - it describes another world so different from mine that i sometimes wish i had. i’m also in the northeast and it’s so interesting to hear about what others are doing with this snowy weekend while i study, all day, all night (medicine). i have no time to write, my s/o is thousands of miles away, i also feel tinges of jealousy when i read about your life in the country with your husband and 3yo son. but we all have our ups and downs… i don’t know that i can relate to your life but i can certainly relate to how you are feeling.

as i try to find my motivation in these cold winter months, sending warm thoughts your way. it’s a beautiful day.

By: Imelda / Greenishlady

Imelda / Greenishlady — Sun, 24 Feb 2008 16:01:30 +0000

Others who have commented have already said much of what came to me as I read. And some of what came I cannot express. It touched my heart, with a little wound to know there is that pain in your life right now. And I saw how, in the past, reading some of what you’ve written about your life, I’ve felt that flash of jealousy for the impossibly beautiful existence you seem to have, and the beautiful relationship you and your husband have at times. We can never know all of what is in someone’s life. I wish you both comfort as the light of spring returns.

By: donab

donab — Sun, 24 Feb 2008 15:37:50 +0000

A friend of mine said to me a while back, after reading something I’d written, that he thought I needed to keep writing because what words I put out in the world have the possibility of helping others who are feeling and living through similar things.

I always think about that when I read your blog. You write so beautifully, but more, so honestly. You write about things I feel, or things I could imagine feeling, and through your words I really do feel it. And knowing that here we are, then, two people feeling this, somehow makes it easier to take the next step, put my foot just a little further forward in hope.

Thank you.

By: Elizabeth

Elizabeth — Sun, 24 Feb 2008 14:15:49 +0000

I have to ditto DO : that former classmate? Trust me, she has her bag of itch, too. We all do. I think this winter has been the test of all time. Seriously, it has pushed us to the very edge– just to survive it.

When things are that hard in our physical world, it leaves no margin for the pinches and pulls of the emotional world.

Today is sunny– I like to think of you having a mug of tea– gazing out from the magic of the kitchen you two have built with your own two hands, gazing out across the fields, across the top of the chicken coop– and reflect on the fact that you just spent a second writing workshops with Pam H et al– and reflect on HOW MUCH you have accomplished and how you ARE having it all, bit by bit– as Bean runs into the room and you see– you ARE writing, you ARE living surrounded in beauty and love.

We sure love you. Maybe we should all ditch it in and take a camper van to the seashore– I’m really tired of winter.

By: Bethany

Bethany — Sun, 24 Feb 2008 09:30:04 +0000

I’m with Lyric, not really knowing how to respond but feeling profoundly touched by this post. I just want to assure you that these words you craft, they’re meaningful, relevant, achingly honest. They stir our hearts so much more than any boozy Manhattan bestseller ever could because they are spun of this real life that we all live. This is the grit of everyday, and you’ve made it BEAUTIFUL. Truly.